Learning to be enough for myself.
My messy yet blessed life and all that comes along with it. Sometimes I’m enough, sometimes I’m not.
I have learned a lot in a few short months. Sometimes I have this idea to write a cheeky post to the men and women that cheat on their spouses and give them tips on how to not be stupid and get caught. But I don’t want to help them. I want to help the…
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To my beautiful son, You are my world. You are the most beautiful, amazing boy. And I love you so much. So very much. You are kind. And tender hearted. And I hope you always keep that. Always love your family and always take for all of God’s animals and especially your puppy dogs that…
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“Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need.” Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club “A lot of people get so hung up on what they can’t have that they don’t think for a second about whether they really want it.” Lionel Shriver, Checker and the Derailleurs…
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Dear husband, You waltzed in here last week to see us. You glided in through the door, almost as if you were held up by the heavens. Your head was held so high and your opinion of yourself was so grand that for a second, I was very confused over what had happened in the…
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This separation/divorce thing is like being thrown into freezing cold water. Unfriendly, icy water of limitless depth and distance. Dark and completely unknown territory, treading water, with no land in sight. But it is either that or stay on a burning, sinking ship with a tyrant. I think I’m giving my (ex)husband too much credit…
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When I was younger, everyone always told me to get out there and see the world. That the world is bigger than I could imagine. That it is beautiful. That in order to feel accomplished and worldly, I should jump at any opportunity to travel. And I did for a long time. During college, I…
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How hard is it to mess up Jello? The packet, the boiling water, the fridge (right?). As of tonight it has been 48 hours since I boiled, stirred, covered and placed in the fridge. It is as liquid as red fruit punch in a bowl – not a single bit congealed. And really, I’m not…
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Today knocked me off my feet. Today my dog won. Today I laughed a little. My dog has this amazing ability to smell every smell in the yard the minute he goes out the door. Then, he has this amazing ability to figure out which direction the best smells are coming from and go there.…
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What makes a home? I kept asking myself that question, over and over today. Was I a good wife? Am I a good mom? I kept asking those over and over, too. They circled and swirled in my head with no accompanying answers. I went to my old house today. The lost house. The failed…
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I saw it. I saw your real smile the other day. I haven’t seen it in many, many months, maybe even a year… or two. You were three feet away and yet a million miles away from me and looking at your phone. I think you were texting with her. Or maybe you were looking…
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