letter to my son

To my beautiful son, You are my world. You are the most beautiful, amazing boy. And I love you so much. So very much. You are kind. And tender hearted. And I hope you always keep that. Always love your family and always take for all of God’s animals and especially your puppy dogs that…

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chasing the money.

“Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need.” Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club “A lot of people get so hung up on what they can’t have that they don’t think for a second about whether they really want it.” Lionel Shriver, Checker and the Derailleurs…

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walking home.

When I was younger, everyone always told me to get out there and see the world. That the world is bigger than I could imagine. That it is beautiful. That in order to feel accomplished and worldly, I should jump at any opportunity to travel. And I did for a long time. During college, I…

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Deleting the Jello

How hard is it to mess up Jello? The packet, the boiling water, the fridge (right?). As of tonight it has been 48 hours since I boiled, stirred, covered and placed in the fridge. It is as liquid as red fruit punch in a bowl – not a single bit congealed. And really, I’m not…

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Walking it off

Today knocked me off my feet. Today my dog won. Today I laughed a little. My dog has this amazing ability to smell every smell in the yard the minute he goes out the door. Then, he has this amazing ability to figure out which direction the best smells are coming from and go there.…

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home

What makes a home? I kept asking myself that question, over and over today. Was I a good wife? Am I a good mom? I kept asking those over and over, too. They circled and swirled in my head with no accompanying answers. I went to my old house today. The lost house. The failed…

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tiny boxes

I saw it. I saw your real smile the other day. I haven’t seen it in many, many months, maybe even a year… or two. You were three feet away and yet a million miles away from me and looking at your phone. I think you were texting with her. Or maybe you were looking…

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